cause I always sit next to someone breast feeding or eating a hot dog.
POST FROM Thursday, January 23, 2003
Going to the past or not (if u're already sad then don't read this)
So today my sister asked me if I had the chance to go back in time, would I do it. I said NO if I can't change things, YES if so. But then my lovely neighbor brought me this present for my birthday and then I took her to take her train to the beach. She is one of the greatest persons I know, with only 81 years on her shoes. My life could not had been the same without her. I met her when I was only four, and since she's been the strongest human being I can think of, watching her feeling sad is something that makes me cry and hate life big time these days. And now that I think about going to the past, of course I would go, no matter what. If only I could see my lovely neighbor happy again, if only I could go to see u man at the hospital. I know now that I have many..many regrets that I didn't realize ever having. I want to be able to change so many things..but I would give my soul just to see u smiling again. I would give my soul just to tell u how i really feel about u two. I pray u left knowing it.. You know what the irony is...I push strangers out of my life..without a fair resson. I claim I don't wanna ever feel this pain again, but deep inside I know u gave me something no one else could ever have given me. You taught me blood means nothing, and that people ain't judge for what they are cause truth is never guilty. Have a nice trip my friend...i'll be waiting where I left u.
8/13/05 - It's probably not a great idea not to go to your medical appoitment when you get the best job they could have probably offered you, just because you want to mantein that perfect record of never taking a blood test.
