cause I always sit next to someone breast feeding or eating a hot dog.
POST FROM Monday, February 10, 2003
My Melancholic day
Have u ever woken up feeling like this must be the way Alanis Morissette felt during her performance on MTV at her umplugged version? I'm in that mood today, wondering and feeling sad, happy, sorprised, sad, cold, in other words I can't stand myself. This thing began when I found out that my options were wrong, so I'm histerically waiting for the 27 to see my errors come true. Last night I was thinking how much I improved at dealing with my own stupidity, cause I am able to laugh at it. But now, facing the most unknown gift I could have ever given to myself ..im totally angry at me. Only me. My head can't stop thinking. Im worried about things I don't even know yet and Im wishing i could go to the past and make some changes. I guess that in 2 more hours Im gonna be like "Face your damn consecuenses for Christ sake" but now ufff. (*punching my head)
Another thing that keeps me thinking is that all my past is just that..PAST. Was it worthed? Would I do it again if i could? Are new things comming to me? Is this road Im walking at the right one for me? Am I in my middle age crisis 20 years earlier?
Probably it will go awaysoon, or at the end of February as far. Don't step by those days cause it's on your own risk.
I heard that US is gonna attack on February 15 and Im shaking gotta say. Oil, not oil? Right, not right? Waiting, not waiting? . ..all this questions at this time seem stupid to me, cause we all know US is going to attack no matter what. Saddam Hussain is hiding something and Bush is hiding something. I want peace but I also want people to live relaxed and not frightened. My occidental mind obvioulsly makes me agree more with the way Americans think, I find it hard to understand what Iraquis want for themself. Why can't they take Saddam out of there?! But when I think about all the history I've been told and also study myself, I can imagine why. I live in a country that history tells u had dictators, and we got them out of power somehow. But ironicaly our last one got out of power (same year I was born) after we went to war to Malvinas. Aint the same, but because he lost that war that dictatorial man got the hell out and we got back to democracy. We had had democracies before and going back to democracy again was paradise. People knew how it worked already, Iraquies dont. Living on that regime was hell. I pray Iraquies realize they'll be better without Saddam for THEMSELF. Now, US going there to fight terrorism is one thing, but buying that US is going to protect those citizens from his dictatorial goverment is totally not true. I want to hear Iraquies express what they want, their projects for the future..a future that I hope includes all their lands posetions (oil), cause that's the only thing they'll have to grow up after Saddam is no longer there. I want Iraq not to create terrorism as much as I want US not to face terrorism's face again. But again, there is terrorism in Spain, Colombia..even in Argentina, my mother says that the big difference is that US is dealing with international terrorism, and that's true, but what would US do if they were dealing with local terrorism? How would they take that out of their own country? Why can't they do the same but in an international level? I'll answer myself thank u very much, because daily news confirm everyday that countries can't take terrorism away themself. Human evilness can't be killed...not localy..not internacionally. And even more if Bush plans to have economical interests after it.
8/13/05 - It's probably not a great idea not to go to your medical appoitment when you get the best job they could have probably offered you, just because you want to mantein that perfect record of never taking a blood test.
