cause I always sit next to someone breast feeding or eating a hot dog.
POST FROM Thursday, April 10, 2003
Me, myself and I
Jeez Jeez Jeez, this is not even a diary anymore, is like the update of nothing really. A place for me to take things out, just because I can. So tonight, once again, I'll talk about my mood. Because I have experienced everything with and for nothing. Well i cant say everything..but A LOT will work. I guess i've never been so lonely like the way I am now, and considering I am a solitaire person, ironically this shouldn't make me cringe. But the truth is that it does. Jeez...i am human after all! who would have guess, ha?
The thing is that when u HAVE to listen to the Cranberries at least on the count to one song per day, u are in big trouble. This melancholic thing aint going anywhere. ( i get all melancholic with The Cranberries, don't ask me why?) I ran into Pablo today in this huge hallway of my school, and he was all cute, I in the other hand was kinda "eat me earth". I dont freaking know what i want, i know. All the remembering thing was great but i strongly feel its ALSO great that is part of the past. I hate being lonely, and i hate being sofocated by people. All the limits are wrong. Hope it gets better soon. But I dont need to worry cause tomorrow I can be like "thank God u are alone" or singing Ode to my family. Its insane...but not clinically yet! , i think (crossing fingers)
8/13/05 - It's probably not a great idea not to go to your medical appoitment when you get the best job they could have probably offered you, just because you want to mantein that perfect record of never taking a blood test.