cause I always sit next to someone breast feeding or eating a hot dog.
POST FROM Wednesday, March 03, 2004
A simple picture..
Has brought the most horrendous image back, right from my unconscious part of my brain to the conscious judgmental easily irritable other part.
I'm going to be open minded here, you know some pictures are nice, look nice, other people love them so they have a good advantage there, but you look at them and they make you remember moments you think you sucked as human race representative or you were feeling like shit inside and nobody (yeah right) knew about it. Pictures that you can live with. But then there are those other ones, the ones that not only look awful but where you sucked the most. Where you know that person in them is totally not who you are today. They seem like they were taken by your worst enemy. Well I saw this picture that makes me wanna kill myself. When I say kill don't take it literally, I mean take my eyes out one by one with some shiny spoon to make it last, suffer a little, then cursed about how I took my eyes out first before plugging the toaster to put inside the bathtub. You get at least this Picture right?
Anyway, a little flashback to my past has tested me and made me realize that I'm not even half the road to my imaginary forever dream paradise. I looked at the picture and wow what a shock. I think it is a good sign I saw many things that I have changed through the time and some others that I definitely will work on some time until I figured them out. I say it is good to change people. Maybe you liked me back then...well too bad. Because I have to let it go and accept it, but there's a place I have to get first.
8/13/05 - It's probably not a great idea not to go to your medical appoitment when you get the best job they could have probably offered you, just because you want to mantein that perfect record of never taking a blood test.
