cause I always sit next to someone breast feeding or eating a hot dog.
POST FROM Thursday, March 25, 2004
"That's all any of us are - amateurs. We don't live long enough to be anything else." Charlie Chaplin, screenplay for Limelight
So she died
On March 20 at 6.15 am I lost the most adorable and unic pet I've ever thought I could ever have. Candice was just 7 years old, and fought with Cancer for a whole month. She walked until the last day. Spent almost the whole day laid down and she ate a lot. I came home at 1 am from School and the first thing I saw was her laying in a very weird position like she couldn't get up from. So I took her and placed her in her bed and later on that evening her lungs failed and with a quiet breath she was gone, exactly like everyone I know who, in the last few months, died did.
Sometimes I think it's something that is meant to happen so death shouldn't be a surprise at all, the timing maybe.
But then you go through it, and you realize that those who said that there are stages of grief are completely right.
Anger is one of them, but how much of it can you have if you have gone from never loosing anyone to three important people in your life plus your full of love cat. The answer my friend is none. I just feel empty. With no hope. The ones I've left to love will never be happy ever again. And I have to accept that I can not change that.
8/13/05 - It's probably not a great idea not to go to your medical appoitment when you get the best job they could have probably offered you, just because you want to mantein that perfect record of never taking a blood test.
