cause I always sit next to someone breast feeding or eating a hot dog.
POST FROM Monday, June 14, 2004
Bye beloved Lamp
I don't know if you are the kind of person that breaks something every once in a while and I don't know basically because I have no idea who u are. But I'm the kind that breaks everything every once in a while.
Lately the intensity of my power, and yes it's a power kinda like superman's super power but instead mine works the opposite way, has gotten to sky levels. I destroy all what crosses my way.
I've broken things that anybody ever thought could get broken. Things that could never been replaced by their owners.
They all stare in horror while I put my dropping face, I wish they never get it on camera. Or I'll break it apart, by accident people, by accident!
I'm a dropper. I remember when I was drinking water in this convent kitchen and one of the three nuns that were staring at me just put a face I couldn't explain or understand, kind of face that your mind starts wondering, so I was like "what is she looking that way?" and then 2 seconds later I loose power in my right hand and there in seconds that passed like minutes, the glass from the XVII century brought from old Germany got on the highest roller coaster ever invented, danced on the air right towards the floor. Thousands of pieces got splashed on their shiny and intensively cleaned floor. Of course nuns don't take a sorry for an apology. Blaming her wasn't as smart as it appeared at that moment neither.
I understand when people break things, I don't jump around when they break my stuff but I don't get angry because it really isnt our fault. Accidents aren't our fault. We just cause them. But why would u get angry if I'm also really sorry when I break people's ugly stuff. Distraction exists. I can't help it. See I feel sorry I kicked that lamp today I should have looked more carefully, but what's a lamp supposed to do on the floor?.
All I have now are questions not solutions. When did I put that lamp there? Does it matter? it's gone, you'll have to deal with it, things go away, and sometimes I'm just the instrument that takes them to that journey.
8/13/05 - It's probably not a great idea not to go to your medical appoitment when you get the best job they could have probably offered you, just because you want to mantein that perfect record of never taking a blood test.
