cause I always sit next to someone breast feeding or eating a hot dog.
POST FROM Monday, June 21, 2004
It is hard
To see pain specially in the eyes of the ones you love. I can't describe how the look of everyone changes after they've lost a father, a sister, a son, a daughter, a husband, a pet, all reasons to be alive. But I sure know the feeling they radiate. I can feel it deeper in my bones. It makes me wanna cry and it feels like I got to find an answer.
I sometimes ask myself, where do reasons appear from? Is it destiny or just pure nature interactions? Can we really choose to love? fall in love? care? solve pain?. No we can't.
The answer is beyond the reach of our hands. It's spiritual random. It's everything we want but no one gets it. Lost and never found. Missing, we can't forget.
We were meant to evolve and see what we can loose, what we've lost. People we can remember what we've lost. We can sense everybody else remembering and just be here trying to ease their pain when we know we can't give them an answer.
8/13/05 - It's probably not a great idea not to go to your medical appoitment when you get the best job they could have probably offered you, just because you want to mantein that perfect record of never taking a blood test.
