cause I always sit next to someone breast feeding or eating a hot dog.
POST FROM Thursday, February 17, 2005
I Am George Constanza
Today, I went to buy myself eye-glasses. The girl that showed me one by one the ones they had was really nice, but I hate to shop around and spend time doing that activity. So it took me less than ten minutes to choose a pair and leave the optic store. Now, of course, I completely regret what I chose. I don't feel like going back to grab them when they are ready.
I know that anything that looks like Gold doesn't look nice on someone with dark brown hair. But I heard a voice in my head that insisted and I followed it. Picked quickly because I so much hated the situation, the awful mirror with the wacky reflection of every try, that not only did I picked some gold ones but also they are shiny as hell. Not my personality at all, yet that voice sounded so familiar.
I have a pathethic issue, yes, and my name is Barbara. It basically annoys me a lot, and if it bothers me then it probably gets to somebody else's nerve as well, not that I'm so important to bother anyone, but what are the chances that I didn't already bother you really. So ergo. Anyway, the thing is that I always tend to say I hate things, I hate this and that yadda yadda. It annoys me because I also hate to hate things too you see. It comes to kick me right back in the ass, my damn issue. And that is walking in plain George Constanza's territory.
For example, George gets help from someone everytime he's got a problem but always tries to build a new plan around an idea that it's the opposite from right. That's why later he understands that he's instincts suck and chooses to stick to the opposite, that way he gets a job with the New York Yankees.
See, I have bad instincts too. I take bad choices. Gold is awful yet I chose it. My road is always full of cracks and I always flat a wheal. Didn't bother to learn how to change one and don't have a cellphone. Why? Because I hate them. So hating things is bad when you get stucked. Takes you deeper into the mud. And I am a girl. I like clean stuff. That's why I wanna change. My sister said a smart thing to me, lucky people aren't really lucky it's all in their positive state of mind. I want to follow that religion from now on.
No more thinking about how much I hate this and that. I'll just focus on what I love about this world instead. I'll stick to the opposite. Maybe that's my answer. I'll see the world with gold glasses.
8/13/05 - It's probably not a great idea not to go to your medical appoitment when you get the best job they could have probably offered you, just because you want to mantein that perfect record of never taking a blood test.
