cause I always sit next to someone breast feeding or eating a hot dog.
POST FROM Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Movie and Silence
Is there anything better than watching a movie late at night in bed, after you have ended a day filled with duties, headaches and few carbs? Well, let me tell you, for me it stands right up there next to one of those precious moments, like extremely silent places, silent warm showers, silent readings, etc. I like silence yes. Have you ever driven alone without music with your windows shut from the cold? It feels magical to me, velocity and silence twisted together. I am not the greater company while driving, because, no matter what distance, I have a pretty bad record of two words per 100miles. Yet, I am a shower singer.
But it's amazing what you can learn from people when you keep silence in the room. Tic tac you have passed from awkward to paranoia. Or you have passed from awkward to talking again. Those moments seem to last forever. I am not saying people shouldn't talk nor that I choose when to shut up, because only God knows I never get it right. I'm talking about what happens when you push someone else's limit. Why would I want to push someone else's limit? That's what I wanna know too.
Silence can be boring, I have started a lot of conversations over my lifetime and why is it always seem to be me the one who starts one. I bet everyone feels the same damn thing. Why is it always me me ME!?
I sometimes can not help but laugh when I find myself again in the same situation with no exits visible. Standing next to someone who refuses to start saying something interesting or uninteresting it really doesn't matter. My head screams Just say something!. Is she going to say something Now?..now? now now NOW?. But I am proud enough not to give up my fight. Because if you do it one more time you'll always feel like you have lost part of that useless proud of yours and another letter of your name. So WHAT TO DO?!
The weather comment is a classic isn't it?, it's what "I can not handle it anymore" people use to calm the freaking out in their heads. How can you not like those people? if they are only trying to say I know we don't have nothing to talk about, but we can imagine stuff and discuss them. I like them.
I know I am no one to be analyzing anyone. But what else can I do if not have fun in my head in a moment which seems to last forever?. Silence can be a pretty nice thing during specific moments. But when you put two or more people together silence transforms and devaluates.
Anyway, I was going to talk about a movie. Last night I watched WIT, it was amazing. I think I even cried. I never cry. If you can, watch it.
ps. All of this silence talk was because I was too amazed of how silent the place was while watching the movie I wanted to talk about. Was.
8/13/05 - It's probably not a great idea not to go to your medical appoitment when you get the best job they could have probably offered you, just because you want to mantein that perfect record of never taking a blood test.
