cause I always sit next to someone breast feeding or eating a hot dog.
POST FROM Wednesday, May 18, 2005
At the market
I see a neighbor my mother's age who sometimes greets me, sometimes turns her head away from mine. I've never known how to deal with that. I always want to go, turn their body facing my way and scream in their faces HELLO, SEE ME! YES IT'S ME THE PERSON YOU SOMETIMES GREET SOMETIMES YOU DON'T. PUT YOUR SHIT TOGETHER ALREADY YOU'RE DRIVING ME INSANE.
But do I do it, no. I can't, I just can't.
Yesterday was not a good day for those who encouraged to go out and suddendly came across my way. This time I will not feel like a muppet I said to myself. Today is the day I am reaffirming my purposely presence right here on this earth.
Let me tell you something, this people can radar something is not going as usual, I could see a little shiver. Like, what is she doing? This is new.Still not looking directly. They never do. Maybe a glimpse you have to psychologically understand. What kind of day will this be?
So I walked next to her and said HELLO, How are you doing? (note: I did not make an ironical voice). She turned, guess how, surprised.
N: Oh hi! B: Hi N: I'm fine you? B: Same as always. Ok. N: Your family? B: They are all doing just fine, mom with high pressure but doctors say it'll all be fine. N: Are you the one who studies medicine? B: ..No, I'm Barbara. N: So you are not you? B: Oh yes, I am myself. N: No you are not you you. B: I'm pretty sure I am me. N: No No, you're not you, you. B: I am not my sister if that's what you mean. N: You're not you then. B: Ok, I'm not me. N: Greetings to your family and your mom. B: ok, same there, cya.
and?, beat it for a standing ovation to my reinforcement here on this planet. It took me five hours to physiologically recover my actual height back and be able to reach the higher shelves.
8/13/05 - It's probably not a great idea not to go to your medical appoitment when you get the best job they could have probably offered you, just because you want to mantein that perfect record of never taking a blood test.
